What
God Told Me about Homosexuality
I
am not homosexual, nor am I a follower of any organized religion. I am, however, a devout believer in Christ Jesus,
whose Spirit has guided me since age four. I listen to the voice that speaks and writes through me; a voice I call God.
My book, Why Do People?, includes many questions
and answers, and one, in particular, addresses the question of why we come into this realm as a man or a woman. It has now
been given to me that I must share this particular question and answer with as many as possible because of the desperate need
for understanding about why homosexuality exists. The answer to the question of why we come into this realm as
a man or a woman was given to me in one of my many meditations with God, is included in my book, and written below.
We come into life as a man or a woman to experience the masculine or feminine sides
of our nature and to connect and integrate with the side of ourselves we resist; the opposite sex. Remember we are on this
planet seeking spiritual wholeness (wholeness of self). Our minds are what feel masculine or feminine and we seek from
that point of reality; our bodies merely imply that we are indeed either male or female. It is always mind that drives
the body, however, not the reverse.
At the core; the
center of our existence, we are equally masculine and feminine, male and female energy; we are fully integrated.
Only in this realm of duality do we separate ourselves from that wholeness. We cannot know all that we are if we cannot
see what we think we are not. This planet is one of duality and resistance, and it is through these that we grow into awareness
of self.
When we experience life in a male body we are
considered inherently objective, mental and strong. Women are considered inherently subjective, emotional and physically
weaker than her male counterparts. Our bodies reinforce our differences apart from the obvious sexual distinctions. What we
need to understand is that the spiritual wholeness we seek has nothing to do with our bodies. We are driven by consciousness
and its quest for wholeness of self.
In the third dimension
(a dimension of heavy and condensed energy), or at the human level of vision and experience, the male resists his feminine
nature and the female resists her male nature. We all incorporate these two natures, however, and at the level of what
can be called oneness (the core self), we recognize these dual natures as male and female energy; Creator Source or God’s
energy, that has been separated into two distinct parts for our evolutionary learning. Our bodies are symbolic, as are
all things in this world of condensed energy, and simply provide houses for consciousness as we work toward spiritual wholeness.
We must see and recognize ourselves as something before we can accept that we are something outside of the thing we realize
ourselves to be.
Although not precluded to this single
interpretation; the gay reality expresses opposing positions; predominately female consciousness living in a male body, or
male consciousness in a female body; an extraordinary and conflicting circumstance for gays, much less any heterosexual looking
in! Here we have male or female consciousness trying to function in a foreign body; a body not at all in alignment with
mind. Still, gays seek their wholeness just like the rest of us. They seek from the level of mind, not body.
Gay men seek men, gay women seek women. These
attractions are confusing not only to gays, but societies as well, because we focus too much on the body and not enough on
the consciousness that drives it. We are a society of puritans preoccupied with sex and too quick to judge homosexuals because
of it. There is a total lack of understanding about this natural state of being and it’s time we open our eyes.
When the consciousness living in the body understands and feels itself as one or
the other sexes, it will do what it feels it must to support that it is male or female. Hence, we see in the gay community
men sometimes taking the physical to extremes in body building. The more a gay man can look masculine, the more he can
reinforce that fact to himself if his body image reflects it. Conversely, he might enhance the feminine aspect of his
nature as depicted in the drag queen world because he loves the woman he is; he has accepted that his female nature is trapped
in a male body and simply works with it. In either case, it is still the masculine self, regardless of the outer expression,
that gay men seek.
Gay men attach to a man in order
to bring that aspect of self that is seemingly missing or lacking to light, to feel the same sense of wholeness we all get
when we attach to people that fill our voids. If a straight man were available to a gay man, that might be his choice; he’s
looking for a male. A straight man is not attracted to a gay man, so a gay man goes to the next best thing; the image
of a male; the male body, and that body probably houses another predominately female consciousness; another gay. Unfortunately,
that’s as close as he can get to his own male nature. The sexual exchange is tantamount in this quest, as the
body is what reflects the masculine for him. So, why wouldn’t he want to make love to the thing that makes him
feel whole? That’s what we all do, isn’t it?
The
same is true for a gay woman. She feels more masculine in consciousness and adjusts her physical body and image to reinforce
that sense. She is attracted to women because that is what she needs to connect with in order to bring into balance
what lies at her core; wholeness of self and the body is simply the thing that reflects the feminine for her.
It is interesting to note that when these relationships develop, there is a dominant
or objective partner and a submissive or subjective partner, just like in heterosexual unions, further qualifying the fact
that we can all express aspects of our objective and subjective natures at any given time. We all incorporate both of
these natures.
Further, a heterosexual woman leaning more toward the masculine traits of her nature seeks
a man who is more centered in the feminine aspects of his nature, bringing balance to both who make up the whole. A
super masculine man might seek an extremely feminine woman, bringing a sense of wholeness and balance to both.
The male or female body in this dimension simply houses consciousness, and that
consciousness will seek its wholeness regardless of whether a body looks male or female. The mind living in the body
will seek its opposite for balance and sense of wholeness. The sexual expression of consciousness through our bodies
is how we feel love and pleasure and we are all entitled to that.
Through the reflection of our opposite nature at the physical level, we get to physically see the other side
or opposite of our physically manifested and consciously realized natures. The male energy naturally seeks the female
energy and the female the male in order to attach to and experience a sense of wholeness, or integration of self. These
two natures make one, the he-she consciousness of self; the thing that lives at the core of our beings and what we can manifest
in awareness if we want to.
We are all capable of this
self-realization and capable of achieving integration of self. Many masters have done it. We are living in a world
of duality and resistance and learning what we are as we struggle through the static energy of resistance and dual thinking.
Jesus was the physical manifestation of the God man;
he-she consciousness self-realized and he demonstrated it for us. He was the physical symbol for what we can all achieve
if we desire to. He was the highest of ourselves and the opposite of what we understand ourselves to be. We live in
a consciousness of duality and he lived in a consciousness of oneness. We live in resistance and he lived in non-resistance.
Jesus knew his relationship to everyone and everything; we don’t, but we can. We can live by his example; follow and
trust the energy we call God, have faith in God’s energy through us, and go within and listen to the wisdom it brings
to consciousness when we’re willing to receive.
In
the consciousness of he-she, or Christ reality, the need to attach to anyone or anything ceases to exist because in that reality,
there are no voids to fill and no sense of duality in mind. In that consciousness we would be self-realized God-beings
and demonstrate at the level of mind Christians call Christ; the way Jesus did. We would co-create with the energy we
call God, and know ourselves to be one with God.
In
the meantime, being male or female is how we learn about what we are and what we hold within through the reflection of what
appears to be our opposite. It is how we understand the energy we call God as we watch it move through mind, seeing,
feeling, acting and reacting in these physical bodies we label man or woman. We get to connect with what appears to
be our opposite or other half and tell ourselves we’re whole!
We feel a sense of the wholeness that is inherent to our natures at the very core of our beings when we connect
with what appears to be our opposite. Remember, we come into this world as a man or a woman to integrate with the characteristics
of our individualized sex, and through the reflection of our seeming opposite nature we see and integrate with those characteristics
as well simply by connecting with our male or female counterparts. We are an integrated energy of male and female energy at
the core and it is this center of being within us that seeks itself in order to bring to consciousness, awareness of the whole
self; the God-self.
It is tragic that we, in our ignorance, see only the sexual expression in homosexuality
and refuse to understand how closely connected we all are in our quest for wholeness. The sexual exchange of male and female
energy is unifying to the participants, regardless of the gender in which that energy resides.
There is always a deeper
reason for what we manifest in our world. Homosexuality has always existed, is a fact of nature, existing in animals and in
the human race: it is neither learned, nor chosen. It is the ism of many beautiful human beings, with kind and loving hearts,
brilliant and creative minds, and souls who quest their wholeness through each other, just like the rest of us.
And to those of you who use religion to defend this issue: if you were truly whole
in God, you would have no need of a mate. You would stand-alone with God, and be co-creating with God as Christ Jesus did.
People wouldn't need to attach to anyone or anything if they were truly whole in Christ and one with God: not gays, not lesbians,
not heterosexuals, no one. We learn from and through each other in this world, and we do this mentally, emotionally and physically.
Until we find ourselves walking in the consciousness of Christ, we must be tolerant
and understanding. We must look beyond the physical and into the spiritual; into the energy, and understand others and ourselves
from a different point of view. We must find a way to love. Understanding, not judgment, is what brings us closer to that
unconditionally loving Spirit of Christ that we each possess.
We all seek the same thing: love and acceptance, and we
all do that through each other. We all use our hearts and bodies to express love and thank God when we connect with people
who reflect it back to us. Homosexuals are no different, and only a deviant mind would assess the physical exchange
between any two consenting adults as something less than love expressing itself.
We as a society need to let God worry about the things we can’t or don’t want to
understand. If ignorance surpasses understanding, and precludes us from being a light to the world by loving all of God’s
creatures, we should worry about that. We should worry about why we do not love, not why or how someone else loves. And we
certainly should not be concerned with how any two adult people are sexually interacting when they express their love. We
all fall short in our ability to unconditionally love: we should worry about that!
Rev. Linda Joy Crutcher